Not quite how I wanted to start to my 60th year

 

Well, I've sort of been through the mill over the last few weeks.

Not quite how I was hoping to start my big birthday year.

There I was with the image of me sailing through January, reclining on a chaise longue, eating chocolates and drinking champagne, to ease myself through the month.

I didn't expect to do quite a lot of local travel, be reclining on examination beds and waiting on results and more results and even more results., but well, the best laid plans and all that.

I now have no nails, am slightly more reclusive than I was before and finding it very difficult to talk about it all without bursting into tears, hence writing it down, I did say that I would document my year!!!

It all started as I was just getting over the flu ( and yes it was the flu and not a cold), I was hobbling towards New Year when I went on what I thought was a routine appointment  and it just spiraled from there.

 I waited for results, only for more tests and waiting again for results.

By this time, worry, shock and thinking 100 steps ahead had taken hold. The first couple of weeks, I could hardly eat ( to be honest, I could last quite well just living on the resources stored in my rump!). So tired all the time I would  just take myself to bed, whether I slept or not. I mentally made notes of what needed sorting out. 

The time spent waiting on results is the longest time ever!!!

Numerous sets of results came back negative, but still they couldn't find an answer to the problem, so more tests were done.

I am now awaiting a further set of  test results, and next week the investigation steps up a notch, and then? well I don't know, I just hope I find out something.

And so I am in the second month of my birthday year still hoping to get some answers, very soon.

I do ask that you don't comment, and I'm not answering any questions regarding all of this, I don't actually know anything myself, I just thought it easier to write it down ( in hope that it takes it off my mind for 5 minutes). The whole thing has taken a huge toll on me and I just want to concentrate on getting answers.

I am now heading off to the airport to try to put this all behind me for a few days as I fly off on my next trip.